Birthdays + FOCUS

Happy Birthday to me!

Thanks to all birthday greetings and surprises and presents!

Really love you all!

Though I can't believe I'm 21 ALREADY.

Thanks for the lovely video! LOVE YOU ROU! MUACKS!

Really touched and I really did tear.... sobs.

Glad that you guys still remember me! =D

I want a ride from XIAN!

I want to kiss ROU! Muahahahha!

I want to have McD brekkie and Coffee Bean gossip sessions with TING and ROU!

I want to see if JOEL has put on weight!

I want to strangle JIANCHENG for not saying happy birthday to me!

I want to remind ARIF that I'm in Sydney, not Queensland!

In conclusion, I want to see everyone!!

Been a really busy week and I'm dead tired.

Hope FOCUS camp and euFOCUS holiday trip would be entertaining and encouraging!!

Superficial

Money is not everything.
...
Reputation is not everything.

Hard

Why is it so hard to be perfect?

Why is it that I've set standards this high for myself ?

Why is that I'm still unable to achieve what I've set for myself?

Why is it that I just can't be like someone who's admired for his/her talents?

Why is it that I just can't accept myself the way I am?

I'm imperfect, that is why God is perfect.

I hope that this can be imprinted in me.

Alone

I just don't want to walk out from my comfort zone.
I'm sure how much you understand how it is like to leave your own comfort zone? it takes up a lot of motivation!

I just don't want to spend lots of energy on thinking of what to converse.
I'm sure how much you realised that you need lots of brain cells to think of what to say and how to continue the conversation?

I just don't want to get to know more people because I'm scared.
I'm sure how much you know that getting to know new people derives fear?

I just don't want to talk sometimes.
I'm sure you know that I'm pretty autistic....

I just don't want to change my way of living.

I'm just lazy.

I just need to change.

Vincent

Starry starry night,
Paint your palette blue and gray,
Look out on a summer’s day.

With eyes that know the darkness in my soul.

Shadows on the hills,
Sketched the trees and the daffodils,
Catch the breeze and the winter chills,
In the colours on the snowy linen land.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free,
They would not listen,
They did not know how.

Perhaps they’ll listen now.

starry starry night,
Flaming flowers that brightly blaze,
Swirling clouds in violet haze,
Reflect in Vincent’s eyes of China blue,
Colors changing hue,
Morning field of amber grain.

Weathered faced lined in pain,
Are soothed beneath the artist’s loving hand.

Now I understand what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free,
They would not listen,
They did not know how.

Perhaps they’ll listen now.

For they could not love you,
But still your love was true,
And when no hope was left in sight,
On the starry starry night,
You took your life,
As lovers often do.

But i could have told you,
Vincent,
This world was never meant for one,
As beautiful as you.

Starry starry night,
Portraits hung in empty halls,
Frameless head on nameless walls,
With eyes that watch the world and can’t forget.

Like the strangers that you’ve met,
The ragged men in the ragged clothes, The silver thorn of bloody rose lie crushed and broken on the vitgin snow, Now I think I know what you tried to say to me,
How you suffered for your sanity,
How you tried to set them free,
They would not listen,
they’re not listening still,
Perhaps they never will.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tRiPHhVcB70

Cockatoo Island + Ferry + euFOCUS + beloved AMIKI + beloved Chloe